Just a quick update...

Because of certain happenings, which most of you are aware of I am going to be closing down the family website and this blog.

Hopefully once things have been resolved and I have been able to move I will once more be able to start a family webpage up again. I have enjoyed sharing with all of you the fun times that my kids and I have had together over the last two years in pictures.

For those of you who are on my MySpace, of course some pictures will still be shared there. If you are on my FB you will find pictures there too. As fo the blog...

I still have the other one that those who matter know about... so for updates and such just check it out. If you have lost the password just send me a quick email and I will get it to you.

With Love to All of You!

TM

Certainly 2009 has turned into a year of extreme changes and many milestones. I can gaurantee that this year will be one I never forget. And although many of things I have experienced have been traumatic... I have to say that it has all paved the way for what I know is going to be the absolute best time of my life.

The most recent changes have brought about a freedom to start a totally new life. It is a fresh new start for my children and myself just ahead of us. I am looking forward to the adventure that is ahead of us.

I can see how the last couple of years have laid the ground work for all of this stuff. I have been on a journey of learning how to be happy no matter what my circumstances. I realized today, I am THERE.

Although I am processing some grief, guilt and other negative emotions that are present... over all... I am truly happy. I wish I could explain it. Like how can a person be crying and grieving yet still be happy?

I miss my Mom and catch myself crying periodically because she isn't here. However, I can look back at all the good times she and I shared and even the not so good times and be grateful and happy for the time I had with her. I can look at the recent financial troubles and see how that they although stressful in the moment, always GOD came through to make sure our needs were met. I can look at my car breaking down, what a pita that has been, yet it was also a blessing. I am getting out and walking every day. Walking I wouldn't have done if the car was still running. I am getting excercise and sunshine that I would have missed out on. Both the excercise and the sunshine are keeping depression out of my life. Not to mention that with my son only 5 months old and me at 41 years old, I am back to wearing my prepregnancy jeans And now the latest hardship... it too has brought good things to my life.

Yes indeed, 2009 will be a year I never forget. My year being Job. I have lost many "things" this year, some things I could not imagine living life without, and yet my faith in GOD never waivered and I can see the sun on the horizone, coming to light my life and GOD coming to restore all I have lost.